Standing in a church waiting for the service to start may not even make what has happened real, so why is it that hearing a song can suddenly leave you in an uncontrollable state of devastation? Grief affects everyone differently and you need to find a way of coping that is right for you.
The loss of a loved one will change our lives, and it can take us years to accept this and understand what has happened. Feeling irritated, angry and depressed is normal; many of us will take these feelings out on our loved ones, but it is important to try and think about what you are doing as these are the people you have here with you now.
The truth about grief is that it is unpredictable, daunting and will almost certainly change our lives. With bereavement, as with most troubling times, it is important not to push how you are feeling aside but instead face what is happening even if life now seems incredibly scary and lonely. Carrying on your life as if nothing has happened may seem like the best solution for you, but when the smallest thing goes wrong you may release all the emotions you have been bottling up. It is important to give yourself some time and space to allow you to process what has happened and work out how you life has now changed.
Coping with bereavement will be a different experience for everyone, some can return to their lives in a fairly uncomplicated way, however many people need a little more help. At this point it may be worth considering bereavement counselling or getting in contact with a bereavement charity. In a safe environment, you can talk about your feelings and the ups and downs you have been experiencing.